love what you do
i've been away for so long, too long maybe. there are just too many things happening in my life i felt like losing my breath slowly, but thank God i am enjoying every moment i've spent so far.
yes, for those of you who don't know me personally might not even know what i am currently facing or what i do for living, but here's a clue; it's something that i love to do, and that is all that matters.
ages ago, kay, probably not that long, i used to work at this one industry i have no interest in. it's like i used to live in two different world; work (that i have no heart in but pays the bill) and hobby (something i really enjoy doing but does not pay much). i found it fun and entertaining to have two sort-of separate life that somehow completes each other. so i lived that way for three years until it became hell.
these two world started to clash and lost its priority. i started to question myself, is this really what i want? and then i started to doubt myself, feeling insecure and confused. i no longer feel happy during working hour, then it started to ruin my daily mood. i've always wanted the day to end early and wish that monday was never invented. it was not a good time, but it was a learning process and i am still thankful for that.
long story short, i made a decision. i finally moved to a new job that somewhat i called it, "home". i must say that the pressure was high, it's new, it's challenging, it's hard, but all those negativism turn into something that push me to work harder and harder because i put my heart in it. my treatment was a whole lot different and that is just because i love my job.
you know what, i used to hate when people say "love what you do and you'll be able to conquer the world". bullshit, i thought.
but now, i must confess that it ain't bullshit. i was in denial, trying to find a good reason to justify my selfish mind. give it a try, do what your heart says and the fire will burn in your heart screaming "i fucking love what i do and i'll give my 200% to finish it"
i won't force you to quit your job right now just because you said you dislike your job. everything is a learning process, and i believe my 3 years was not wasted. if you are in position where you can see no future in your current workplace, or you feel like everyday is living hell, then go. get out and find your new home. you'll love it there.