Wednesday, November 23, 2016


10:53 PM 0
oh no, november is ending and we will soon bid 2016 goodbye.
this boring phrase will then be overheard so many times,
"how time flies, eh?"
to be honest, i felt 2016 was pretty ... um, uninteresting.
despite the tour i had to USA (does not mean to brag), the other things i did in life was ordinary.
i remembered at the start of 2016 i was looking for bigger challenge in life,
i did not find that in work - but thank goodness, i found where my heart belongs.
there are things that go exactly by the plan and there are unpredictable ones.
all in all, i am not that much satisfied to what i have achieved this year.

i hope i'll do much better next year.

Sunday, November 20, 2016

what will happen to us?

10:53 PM 1
if we all humans live in peace, will there be heaven?
if we all humans live to fight, will there be hell?
there is white and then there is black
there are always two sides of a coin

good and bad, it is pretty easy to differentiate the two
since a kid, we are always taught to do good things in life,
but; grey areas always exist
and confuse us half-way.

life doesn't come with a manual book,
there is no clear guidance to which side is good and which is bad.
we then started to assume, we think and make judgement.
everything; then comes from our own mind, our calculation or even our illusion.
this is where things may gone wrong.

so, what will happen to the world,
when everyone thinks differently?
when everyone believes in different values?
when there is nothing that can unite us anymore?
what will happen to us, the humans?

Thursday, November 17, 2016


10:28 PM 0
"oh hey, where are you"

"i've been waiting for hours"

"no reply?"


"that's okay"

"i'm okay"

"at least, i'll pretend i am okay"


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Tuesday, November 15, 2016

tell me about it

9:52 PM 0
"what is wrong?"

"i don't know, everything seems wrong to me"

"yeah, i feel uncertain about my own feelings.
it's somehow complicated"
"tell me about it"


Saturday, November 12, 2016

my all time favourite love story

9:28 PM 0

unrequited love; is my all-time favourite story.

i always find it magical when i learned that love could be so pure.
because, loving someone who doesn't love you back is not what the fairy tale offers.
and happy ending might not be an option.

to feel one-sided love,
staying true and loyal to it, 
but at the same time, wishing the person you love would return the favour;
it is not easy, my friend.
it's sad at times; but a given guilty pleasure as well.

let me confess you a thing.
i ... am in love with unrequited love.
it is confusing i know, but let me get it straight.

yes, my first ever love was unrequited for 4 years.
the next one then lasted for 6 years.
i am a pro. i get used to not receiving love back.
and once my love was returned whole-heartedly, i felt a very uncommon feeling.
not that i hate it, but it's just... unusual.

i am in a very steady, healthy relationship.
i love him, and i expect nothing more. it's enough.
but, you know, once a habit; it'll be hard gone.
having unrequited love was like running in my blood.
so, to put it short - i do miss the feeling.
i missed having unrequited love.

i do not like someone else other than him,
but, i like the feeling lingers in this heart. 
and in exchange, i would watch couples of movies / dramas that highlights the feeling
so that it would come back alive,
even though, for a very short time - at least, i can experience the most beautiful story.
the one love story, that is very real;
and soul-touching.


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